You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you and I have appointed and placed and purposefully planted you, so that you would go and bear fruit and keep on bearing, and that your fruit will remain and be lasting, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name [as My representative] He may give to you. John 15:16
We are in the middle of the COVID-19 stay at home order, so I have not taken too many drives lately, but during my quiet time today the scripture above grasped my heart like a I year old with their smash cake. It wasn’t the first time I read that scripture, but something today about those words “You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you” stopped me in my tracks and took my breath away. I laid there in my bed almost paralyzed by those words, finding it difficult to even look at them again. You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you. It was like two little kids playing tug-a-war with my heart. One tugging saying I have chosen you and the other tugging back saying but I am not worthy. I have chosen you, but I have failed you. . . I have chosen you, but I will not succeed . . . I have chosen you, but they will not accept me. I HAVE CHOSEN YOU! I am not sure what self-defeating thoughts you may be struggling with right now, but God wants you to know that He has Chosen YOU. Not only has he chosen you, but he appointed you, placed you, and purposefully planted you so that you could (and will) be a blessing to others. He already knew every mistake you would make, every bad turn you would make, every thought you would have and every word you would speak but he still chose you. He has planted a seed in you (your purpose) that is meant to grow and develop so that you will bear the type of fruit that keeps giving and giving like the five loaves of bread and two fish. If this scripture has spoken to you like it has me, I encourage you to write what you are feeling and what you hear God speaking to you in a journal. We sometimes have these intimate encounters with God and as life continues, we forget them. Writing things down in a journal is a way to keep those encounters fresh and alive, as well as be a source of encouragement in the future. I would like to share my journal entry for today in hopes that it may be a source of encouragement for you. As you go about your day today just remember that you are chosen.
Oh man that scripture got me today Lord. You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you. That right there stopped me in my tracks. I don’t know why, I guess I needed to be reminded that I am chosen. It doesn’t matter that my biological father told the courts he no longer wanted to be my dad, it doesn’t’ matter that my adopted father abandoned us when he married into another family, it doesn’t matter that the boys thought I was ugly growing up and I didn’t fit in with any circles. It doesn’t matter that my ex-husband emotionally abandoned me. It doesn’t matter because you my heavenly Father has chosen me. With all my flaws and dysfunctions, you love me and have chosen me. You didn’t choose me like someone trying to decide what to have for dinner, but you chose me for a purpose. There is a reason you call me your child. My parents may not have planned me but God you had a plan for me before my parents even laid eyes on each other. You knew the feeling of rejection and defeat I would experience throughout my life but you had a purpose for it. You gave me the inner strength I didn’t know I had so that someday, this day I would be able to tell another woman that she is chosen, and she is loved. Not because of how she looks or for what “she can bring to the table” but just because. She is chosen and loved with an unconditional love that only you can provide and her life experiences whether good or bad serve a purpose. A purpose that will go beyond what she could ever see or imagine. Thank you God for choosing me. Thank you God for appointing me. Thank you God for placing me and thank you for purposefully planting me. I’m so excited to be a fruit bearer for you and your kingdom. Thank you for every woman that I get to remind that you have chosen them for a purpose. That purpose is to somehow help another and that person will help another so that we will have an orchard of trees bearing more and more of your fruit.